bullshit at it's finest

I don't even know how to start this. I'm so beyond angry I feel like I might lose it.
I called work today to see when I work next, and apparently I don't work at all this week. So here is something else, more bullshit I have to deal with. Here is more injustice and discrimination because of this motherfucking bullshit disease!
As difficult it is for me to work sometimes, I need to work If I can't work I'm totally fucked. I need to make money. It's not even like I could get disability if I needed to because my disease doesn't really qualify. I feel like I'm totally fucked here.

I'm calling my Dr.'s tomorrow to make sure everything has been sorted out there so I can hopefully get some real help soon. I'm sick of this soreness and I haven't even started my period yet. I slept most of the day, and I probably could have slept it all away. It is so depressing being in pain all the time, sleeping your life away because it's the only relief you have. Going to work gives me that bit of normalcy I need in my life.

What I find especially troubling about all of this is how normal my story is among my Endo sisters. I was warned and give a heads up too, but until you're actually in it, it can be hard to understand. The isolation and hopelessness that comes with this disease and fighting for your ability to live your life. It takes a drastic toll and I wonder often how I will keep going. I wonder how my sister who are mothers do it, I wonder how they find he strength. I wonder how so many women can suffer so horribly and still nothing has changed. How our healthcare systems and medical researchers have failed the women of our world. How we are left to suffer.