almost there

I'm not as nervous as I thought I'd be today. I've been trying to prepare as much as possible without tiring myself out. I've just got laundry and a few other small things really, pack a bag just in case I have to stay overnight. That's if they have to open my pelvic cavity and can't just use the small incisions they make. Actually for anyone who's interested in what exactly my surgery will entail.. http://www.endo-resolved.com/laparoscopy.html That's a really great explanation. I'm very relieved and happy that my sister is being kind enough to take the time to drive me and my boyfriend is coming too. That will help me immensely. I just hope I don't  have to stay, and I can get in and out of the hospital and home to my bed for sleep. Home to watch the Exorcist and do some colouring books, though I'm sure I'll just want to sleep. I did get myself a 2 more colouring books yesterday. One of beautiful mandalas and one of cats and kittens. Super cute. I organized my nightstand so all of my art stuff is handy, and I've even got blank paper and some of my stuff to work on for when I want to get really creative and be original. I'm feeling good and hoping for the very best.
I just want to say thank you to everyone who reads this, thank you for your support, it means SO much.

7 days to go...

My surgery is in 7 days... FUCK, I am so nervous and excited. I'm like a kid before Christmas with my guts all twisted up. I've been trying not to think about it. It's just so scary, and because it's the only way to diagnose and then take out anything and everything that shouldn't be there. I wonder what shape my ovaries and uterus is in, how will this affect my fertility? I have to drink pico silax which is this crap that will empty out my bowels before my surgery so they can check them out properly too. I have a feeling my appendix will come out for sure.... I just have to think about how much pain I have been in, especially  this last week with my period and know that this is going to help me. It has to.

I am happy my sister is going to drive me and Ryan is coming with me. It will help make me less anxious. I just need to try my best to keep myself busy until then and get what I need to do before it done.

I've been really enjoying adult colouring books lately, which I really thought I wouldn't like. I guess it's because I don't have to think about what I'm doing and I just get to use colour, which I love. I find it inspiring too. I will surely be doing lots of colouring and doodling after my surgery to keep myself busy. I've got lots of markers and coloured pens and pencil crayons and even some Mr. Sketch markers that take me back to my childhood colouring with my Mum. It's fun.