My surgery is in 7 days... FUCK, I am so nervous and excited. I'm like a kid before Christmas with my guts all twisted up. I've been trying not to think about it. It's just so scary, and because it's the only way to diagnose and then take out anything and everything that shouldn't be there. I wonder what shape my ovaries and uterus is in, how will this affect my fertility? I have to drink pico silax which is this crap that will empty out my bowels before my surgery so they can check them out properly too. I have a feeling my appendix will come out for sure.... I just have to think about how much pain I have been in, especially this last week with my period and know that this is going to help me. It has to.
I am happy my sister is going to drive me and Ryan is coming with me. It will help make me less anxious. I just need to try my best to keep myself busy until then and get what I need to do before it done.
I've been really enjoying adult colouring books lately, which I really thought I wouldn't like. I guess it's because I don't have to think about what I'm doing and I just get to use colour, which I love. I find it inspiring too. I will surely be doing lots of colouring and doodling after my surgery to keep myself busy. I've got lots of markers and coloured pens and pencil crayons and even some Mr. Sketch markers that take me back to my childhood colouring with my Mum. It's fun.
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