I'm so tired

This has been a bad period so far, even before I started bleeding today. I just want to die because it's so bad. It makes me so tired and drained and it takes me soo long to recover from it, if I ever do. I am so sore, I just want to sleep in my bathtub because it's the most relief I can get. I will have another hot one before bed, with lavender oil and baking soda and Epsom salts. I napped earlier and I put some lavender oil on a tissue and held it to my nose and inhaled it as I fell asleep. It really helped, and I will do it again tonight, as it is very soothing and relaxing. I hope I can get a good sleep tonight, I have to get up early because the owners of the building or something are coming just to check in with everyone as people have been complaining about the new landlord. Ah well, I can nap after they come. The story of my life, I live for naps. I sleep so much it's absurd, but that's just a part of my life now. I need to because of how tired I constantly am and it just never seems to end. I wake up tired. I still have a hard time sleeping though, and when I do sleep I feel like I move around so much that I might make my pain worse. I know I need to go to a sleep clinic, I need to find a new Dr. I did get a call about an appointment for a gastro specialist but its not until march, I need to get myself on the cancellation list.

I still can't get over how bad my pain is this month. It's so hard to describe too, I can say that my pain on my right side hasn't been as bad as usual, but my other pain has more than made up for that. It sort of feels like there are weights or something in my pelvis/uterus and they are moving around pulling on everything. It's like all of my insides are stuck together and when I move everything hurts. My stomach is so swollen and bloated I look 6 months pregnant. I am always in wonder of how much I bloat. This meme says it all..