I am so livid right now, it's unbelievable. I've been trying to get my Dr. to send me to the proper specialists and I had my specialists office send her everything and she still won't send me to a pain specialist. All I got was a fucking referral for a GI, which I do need. I just feel like a pain specialist is more important since I already had a referral to one and it was to far away. I have so little faith in the system, I have so little faith left.
This weekend I have to go to my niece's baptism, and not that I don't want to see my family and see my lovely nieces who I love so unbelievably much. I also get to be the Godmother this time. I'm just dreading all of the social activity's that will go along with it. I'm dreading faking it terribly and having to explain why it is so hard to get help for this disease and what little Dr.'s do and know.
I am just so tired of all of this and don't know how much more of this I can take. I will keep fighting as hard as I can and self medicating. At least I have that.
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