I'm counting my lucky stars. I was able to make it through work yesterday & I was lucky enough to get asked if I wanted to go home early on Saturday. It was such a blessing because I wasn't sure how I was going to make it through my shift as it was a long one. Luckily yesterday was a nice short one and I still had a lunch.

I'm hurting today though, a lot. I'm so sore and stiff all over and my muscles and joints are just aching. I was trying to stay sleeping this morning but my pain wouldn't let me. I'm hoping to nap this afternoon. I'm just always surprised with how much I ache... I feel like I ran a marathon or something. This is picture really sums it up.

Thanks to my friend Sarah for sharing that on FB a while back.

I really can't wait for my surgery because I'm just so tired of feeling like shit all the time and I don't know how much more of this misery I can take. The anger and frustration it brings me is to much, and I don't handle anger well.

On a lighter note I managed to summon the spoons to go to Costco and got a 100ml bottle of tea tree oil for 15$ and it comes with a little book. I'm pretty happy, I saw it before and had been wanting to go back and get it. I'm also making some firecrackers, my second try. I'm using keif so they will be potent. I tried before but I don't think I baked them hot enough, but they somewhat worked. I hope these do, I need some relief, my hips & pelvis feel like they are trying to be ripped apart. I used peanut butter and hazelnut spread together and graham crackers. For those of you that don't know what firecrackers are, you use a cracker and peanut butter or something fatty like that with weed and you spread it on a cracker and bake it for about 20 mins. I used coconut oil to help make it even fattier, and you need those oils to activate the cannabis. I sued keif too which is the powder that you get when you grind your herb. I made 2 today so if this one doesn't work I can eat more, or of it does I can have it later tonight. I just ate it, it wasn't to bad. I don't mind the taste of weed though. I'm going to end this and see where this goes, I might have a bath because my stomach is so sore, relax so my firecracker can kick in.