I know I shouldn't let it get to me, but it is..... I called work this evening, after missing a 3rd day in a row today, to see what time I work tomorrow. I really can't miss another day, and the pain has gone down to a level that is tolerable enough for me to handle for my 9 hour shift tomorrow. What's bothering me is the response I got from my co-worker on the phone. I asked to know when I was working and said something about missing work and not wanting to miss more. They said something about them being big shifts, and then something about, whatever, do what you've got to do. It's not that simple. Not to mention, I was laying in bed after napping with my heating pad on my stomach when I was on the phone. It makes me so crazy that people think I want to be missing this much work. I feel like people think I am lazy, and that's so not the case. It makes me anxious for tomorrow because I have to think about how to explain myself. I can't just say I have my period and it's really bad because I know people will be like 'I work all the time with my period, it's just part of being a woman'. I can try and say I've been having a bad Endo flare up, but no one really knows what that means. I feel like I should get business cards made up with information about endometriosis on it so I can hand them out to people. I need something like that.

^^The above was written on Saturday June 4th 2016^^

I'm going to keep this post going because I want to include my venting from above. My period is almost over, and while the raging, almost euphoric cramps I was having are gone, I'm still having pains and very stiff and tired. Unbelievably tired. I went back to work on Sunday finally and worked Monday too. I had yesterday and today off and work the next 3 days, and then who knows. I'm so tired though that it's stupid, I know it is because I'm just finishing my period though. After all that pain and shit you are bound to get tired. I've just got to say something here, I LOVE my Diva cup! I was so hesitant for so long, and when I got my last period a few months ago I just couldn't take tampons anymore. It's amazing, it is so easy to use, and not as bad to clean as I would have thought. You can shower and bathe too, and the smell is non-existent. I'm just so thrilled that I finally decided to go for it. If you are thinking of getting one and aren't sure, I highly recommend it. The cleaner they sell smells pretty good too and you get a coupon for it when you buy the Diva cup in the box.

Alright.. moving on then. I got a call today for a pain specialist in Toronto, but
I need to get into my Dr so I can see one here. I need to get someone to help me get medical pot. I also need to see an gastro Dr and figure out what's up with my awful IBS. It's so bad with my period, and now that the heat, more  specifically the humidity, coming it will get worse. I'm not looking forward to it.

I'm going to finish this entry by saying I'm super excited, for 2 reasons. My favorite TLC tv shows start again tonight, My Big Fat Fabulous Life & I Am Jazz. Both awesome shows, Whitney from the first one is so inspiring to me, she just radiates light and is so positive. She suffers from PCOS, which is also a disease that affects the female reproductive system. Also I'm excited because
I think I came up with a pretty cool idea this morning. With all of my student council, OSSSA and Katimavik experience I've always wanted to use it to help people or do something. I've been trying to think of what I could do for Endo and my sisters... well how about a leadership/awareness conference for Endometriosis? I know it's just a new idea, but I feel like I could plan workshops, have some guest speakers and to bring sisters together would be a powerful thing. Anyway... I'll work on the idea some more and put my feelers out.


Here's a really great interview with the Producer of Endo What (a fantastic documentary that was released this year about Endometriosis)

http://www.inflectionpointradio.org/episodes/2016/6/6/shannon-cohn-the-cost-of-endometriosis