It's been 2 weeks and I'm still spotting. I went to the clinic on Friday and the Doctor wasn't really very helpful, just did a routine pregnancy test, which I knew would be negative. He said if it's still happening in 48 hours then to go for an ultrasound. So it looks like I'm going to have to do that. It's such a fucking joke, I'm so sick of it, it makes me so angry. I'm starting to really have a hard time with my body, I'm really starting to hate it. I can't help but just feel more and more frustrated with it because of how many things I can't do anymore, and it's so depressing. If I could only get a fucking family Doctor so that I could at least apply for ODSP and see what happens. I can't wait for things to just be different, I've really had enough of this shit. I only want to be able to take care of myself, and I know I sound like a broken record, but it's something you take for granted until you can't do in anymore. The things that tire me out make me feel like the laziest person ever.
Changing my thoughts here,.. trying to get positive. I have my appointment with the cannabis clinic tomorrow. I'm super excited, a bit anxious and nervous. I just really hope all goes well and that I can get approved and the process started. It will be sooo good to have access to medical grade marihuana. I should try and get to bed soon, try and relax a bit more.
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